Life in Kampar

it's that time of the year again.

2010-03-27T12:03:00.000-07:00

yes, long awaits, time to move on

and close down this blog.

am not shutting it down yet.

but, leaving it here.

just like that.

am gonna say,

goodbye.

and of course, i will blog again.

in a new blog address of course :)

whenever i do this, it means

i need a restart. so,

goodbye.

blah.

2010-03-23T12:33:00.000-07:00

I do not know how to express myself today.

so tired. so many things. so many types of feelings.

all in one.

so should i be happy? or sad?

contented? or grief?

smile or mourn?

cry or don't cry?

think or don't think?

there were things that can offend me easily last time,

and it still offends me. but i am just too tired to feel offended.

i do care a lot about loads of stuff. but now i am limiting myself,

care about those important things. others, leave it aside if i can.

seems like i no longer can live normally.

feel like a robot instead.

emotion scares me now. am i happy or pretending to be happy?

and the question is, what's so good about being happy?

you're happy, so?

and i used to like to know about everything that naturally relates to me.

but now? no thanks.

don't let me know. the less i know, the better.

the less i know, the less i care, the less i will not be disappointed.

and then trying to minimize sadness. less sadness, happy or not, is just another issue.

heartbroken.

2010-03-21T12:55:00.000-07:00

I really didn't know that ahkor can leave such a big impact in my life.

Everything seems ok at home now.

But my heart felt like being squeezed very very hard.

I do not like this feeling at all.

I admit that I have been ignoring the fact.

Refuse to accept the truth.

Unable to acknowledge.

I want to talk about him. But I always stop half way.

I don't know what to do next.

I know I should live a better life,

do what I should do,

continue living.

ahkor, I used to think that you are not so important in my life.

You have your life, I have mine.

We lead our own life,

It's not that I don't care about you.

I care a lot about you, I do.

How can I forget? I cannot rub you off from my past memories.

It hurts so much to not see you around anymore.

You hurt us all.

You hurt me, Kaa Jie, daddy mummy and Suk Hui.

Your name is still in our daily conversation as if you never left us.

Whatever you did is still very fresh in our mind,

as if it just happened yesterday.

None of us, expect this to happen.

We are so hurt. I am so hurt.

I miss seeing you.

ahkor, we have been together for 20 years.

27 years with daddy and mummy.

mummy looks so weak now. daddy is making himself bz with business.

suk hui is trying her best to take over your part in the family.

kaa jie is really hurt by you, she still thinks of you everyday.

I try to ignore the fact you are gone.

but how long can I ignore?

In the arms of an angel.

2010-03-20T13:19:00.000-07:00

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

expectations eh?

2010-03-17T05:51:00.000-07:00

I already told myself months ago.

To not have any expectations at all.

So that I shall not be disappointed.

My mind may be blur these few days.

Time to grip my hands,

and move forward.

No more tears,

No more grieving,

No more expectations,

No more disappointments.

Restart, restart, restart.

I dunno how many times I can reboot my mind.

Just hope that it won't crash.

Do not expect anything at all!

with ♥

2010-03-16T06:05:00.000-07:00

2010-03-15T08:29:00.001-07:00

I miss ahkor :(

Finally!

2010-03-14T09:08:00.000-07:00

Truly happy for the first time in the year 2010! =D

My ignorance, brings me bliss?

2010-03-13T10:36:00.000-08:00

I am back in PJ. Couldn't get tickets yesterday evening. Came back today instead. And Bear will fetch me back to Kampar tomorrow for the first time after 3 months of cooling period. Everytime when I go back to Kampar, the life there will be all about me. And just me. I do not need to care about anything else that doesn't relate to me. Though I still have a lot of frustrating issues to get rid of. But when I come back to PJ, it will be a total different story. It will always about my brother, the topic will not just go away. And later in the morning I will have to follow them to look or choose a place for his urn. Everytime when I come back, I see the urn. Flashbacks all over my mind. Tears will start flowing, makes me wonder. How long am I going to ignore the fact thay my brother is truly gone. To be honest, I am treating it as if he went on a holiday. A very nice long holiday. He is not dead, he went for a vacation.

pass by.

2010-03-12T11:20:00.000-08:00

Some people are really meant to be a passerby in your life?

being so important to you when you are at the lowest point,

but left just like that when you are back on track in life?

suddenly this person, can only leave you a very fond memory.

but will not be as important during your downfall?

Must human fell down, then only will know who is really there for them?

Fell down so hard, being hit so hard,

that particular person will reach out his/her hand,

to pull you up, to make you stand up again.

At the same time lend you his/her shoulder to cry on.

he/she will wipe your tears away,

will be there to listen,

will try very hard to make you laugh,

You can cry, whine, express all you want.

He/she will still be there for you to fall back on.

Until one day, your senses came back.

You start to accept the truth or the reality.

And also begin to stand up without relying on anything.

That is when that person will let go of you.

Watching your back from a very far distance.

Hoping that you can walk and move forward without him/her.

And not asking for anything in return.

Hoping that you will be strong and continue walking to the front.

moving forward, leaving him/her behind.

That person is a passerby in your life.

You feel so grateful and couldn't thank him/her enough.

You wish to give him/her something in return,

but there is nothing that he/she wanted.

But you to continue your life and live happily ever after.

And he/she will tell you that, when you fall down again,

You can always find him/her again.

I couldn't thank you enough. Really.

Thank you.

Oh Yes.

2010-03-11T10:07:00.000-08:00

So I am back. Time to start my engine.

I feel so much stronger now.

I guess Bear is really that important for me after all.

I will not get into details here.

I am not doing well in UTAR right now,

due to so many things that won't stop happening.

But I am in control now. Because I am back, with great support!

I always wanted to work with creative people,

but I don't see any creative people around me yet.

I don't want to be picked on.

I want to be the one who pick who to be or work with me.

If you are good and you can show me good work to be done, I will follow you.

But most of you are not. I shall pick who I wanna work with.

I choose you. Not the other way round.

It's time to unleash my style and do it my way.

You wait and see.

Turning Point

2010-03-11T03:23:00.001-08:00

I am back on track!

Come and celebrate with me!

Furnished Rooms for let in Westlake

2010-03-01T19:37:00.001-08:00

Anybody want to shift to Westlake? I know a good owner, he is a very nice guy. He decided to rent all his rooms out.

His house is fully furnished and got astro and got maid come and clean the house and even your room if you open your door to let them in. Yes, 2 maids.

Everything is ready and if you need transportation to move in, he will help you as well. I wanted to move in, the offer was so tempting, but I still have a contract going on. Sigh.

So anybody who wanna grab a spot, email me then.

He did not ask me to blog about this, I did this because I know he is a very good owner and good things are just too good to share. If I can, I will move in as well.

My email is boboleecious@hotmail.com.

When I say something is good, it will be really good. Trust me.

I am sorry.

2010-02-22T07:22:00.001-08:00

My eldest sister called me just now out of a sudden at 10pm. And I do not know how to react to this matter. My brother just passed away because of sudden heart attack. He is 28 years old.

I admit I am never close to him. We wouldn't speak to each other for years because of stupid reasons. But there was a change within these 2 years. We were closer to each other. Not that close, but in our terms, we are close enough already.

CNY is truly the reason for reunion? He was still around when my cousin brought his son to see us last night. Last night was the last night I saw him. And this morning I came back to Kampar.

This is too sudden. I do not know how to react. I cried. I am stuck here and there is nothing that I can do. I am worried of my parents. Mummy must be very very depressed. Why things just won't stop happening to me?

I had enough already. I am very very tired. I am just trying to get through another day. Take everything that you want from me. Just take it. I can't hold on any further. Just take whatever you want from me.

Now I've lost my brother. What can I say now? Goodbyes will never stop.

Ah Kor, I am sorry.

Phones

2010-02-11T03:51:00.000-08:00

Do you remember your first mobile phone?

Mine was Nokia 3610. I bought one for myself when I was Form 1 because I do not want to be left out and want to be among the first people that owns a mobile phone at that time during my generation. At that time not much parents will buy you a mobile phone, so it seems "cool" to have a mobile phone at that time. So I saved some money and I still remember how much it cost me. RM470 forked out from my very own pocket.

My first phone looks like this but in silver colour. Still without colour screen at that time. But soon Nokia came out with Nokia 7250.

It comes with colour screen and camera. But it was still OK, because not much people own a mobile phone anyway during that time, so I'm OK with my Nokia 3610.

Then during Form 5, my ex bought me Nokia 3230. It was a good phone that served me well. Until I broke up with him, I literally treated that phone like trash. Totally full of scratches on the screen made by my Swarovski crystals handphone accesories that I made myself. And the top came off so it's kinda hard to on and off the phone and the charger went faulty. So it's very hard to charge this stupid phone.

So yeah, Kinda fed up with this phone.

Then my eldest sister gave me this LG KU380 as a present before I go to Kampar years ago. And it is still serving me well until today. Sometimes this phone gives me some problem as well. Sometimes it will shutdown by itself or cannot read the sim card. Lately it keeps on showing me emergency calls only no matter how many times I restart the phone.

I decided to give up. I have to move on you know? It's not you. It's me. You are just not suitable for me anymore. I love you so much last time. But not anymore. I'm sorry.

Now, say Hi to my new Blackberry Curve 8520 :)

I officially joined the BB Cult! I have to find somewhere that I belong. Some people turned to religion. But I decided to get something nice for myself after so many things happened in my life.

I deserve to have something that I want. Though sometimes things just don't work out as the way that I planned. But I will not give up on things that I can get my hands on. I will work hard to get things that I want in life. If I don't get it in the end, I can always say,

at least I tried.

Peer Pressure

2010-02-10T04:42:00.000-08:00

I can finally feel it now.

This is what I really needed.

Peer Pressure.

Striving hard just to survive in this world.

5 years

2010-02-10T02:16:00.000-08:00

Imagine yourself 5 years down the road,

Where will you be?

oh noes!

2010-02-09T16:50:00.000-08:00

I told myself that I will not colour my hair again. But I have the urge to colour my hair now! I shall not colour because I will surely regret after that. Not because of the colour! Colouring your hair makes your hair dry! And I hate dry, spoilt hair!

Hairdressers always tell me that "It's just dry, have to put some oil loh. Not spoilt lah."

But I cannot tahan dry hair! I will always go chop it off! But I feel wanna colour!

I shall not colour! I shall not colour! I shall not colour!

*chants*

Goodbyes

2010-02-06T14:03:00.000-08:00

I hope you remember this picture. Taken using your phone. By walking me home. And I was happy. Thank you.
I've had to say good-bye more times than I may have liked, but everyone can say that. And no matter how many times we have to do it - even if it's for the greater good, it still stings. And although we will never forget what we've given up, we owe it to ourselves to keep moving forward. What we can't do is live our lives afraid of the next good-bye because chances are they are not going to stop. The trick is to recognize when a good-bye can be a good thing - when it's a chance to start again.

Let it be.

2010-02-05T11:03:00.000-08:00

bummer.

2010-02-04T04:39:00.000-08:00

I keep on bumping into people that I don't wanna meet these days. Sigh. I really wished to get out from here. But I can't. Show me some mercy. I really wish I can forget everything. The good and the bad.

Leave me alone. For now.

I find it kinda funny now, when I care about something, he thinks that he is handing a report to me. On the other hand, the people that I don't care, keep on reporting their daily lifestyle to me.

I am just not interested. Things never goes my way I guess.

Someone please help me get through this. I am almost burnt out. very soon.

2010-02-02T10:36:00.000-08:00

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.

turning point.

2010-02-01T12:38:00.000-08:00

FAS called me this morning, my course transfer application is successful! I'm quite happy, I thought I will be very excited. Maybe I am sad because I can't share my joy with someone that I used to care. Hence, happy is enough I guess.

Kinda sad too because I wasted 3 credit hours :( I am offered Pengajian Malaysia, but I've already done it. And it is too late to add subjects :( Bummer. Never mind, will try to concentrate elsewhere. Was thinking to bury myself under all the books to distract myself.

Well, 4 subjects is good enough. I think.

Anyways, I received a gift all the way from Ipoh to Kampar :) Let the pictures do the talking then. The more I type, the more emo I will go. Sheesh.

Big Apple Donuts!

Thank you Rex for trying so hard to cheer me up. Despite that it is your birthday, but I receive gifts from you instead. I owe you one. Thank you so much for listening to me. You have no idea how much I appreciate it. All the thank yous from me is just not good enough. I wish I can do something for you. But for now, I will be concentrating on picking up the shattered pieces by myself. I need more time than what I expected after all.

Anyway, Happy Birthday, Rex. Thank you very very much.

Hope everything will turn out just fine.

From now on

2010-01-30T12:41:00.000-08:00

I am going to be more successful than you no matter what it takes.

ken lee tulibu dibu douchoo.

2010-01-23T03:20:00.000-08:00

Bear,

How are you? It has been weeks, or months. I have not seen you or hear from you. I didn't call you or sms you. I guess you are doing the same too. It's funny isn't it. "How are you?" used to be the first sms of the day when we are not in Kampar. A plain simple sms to start a conversation. Hoping to know how you were doing when we were far apart.

My memories of you are kinda blur now bear. Sometimes when I go to a certain place in Kampar, those memories do come back. The sweet ones. The funny thing is, the bad ones are hard to recall now. Don't you think it's kinda absurd? Days passed by, I came to realize, I can't feel your existence anymore. You and I are really that far apart. From seeing you everyday to not seeing you at all.

I start to feel fear, because deep down you know that I do not want to lose you. I find it kinda hard to adapt. I have not been saying the word "bear" for quite some time. And nobody has been calling me that for quite some time. That is the moment where I really know that you are gone.

Your "shell", William. Told me that you left and will never come back. And he told me that bear wish me to move on and let you go. And he said that I will find someone better than you. Your shell was crying at the same time when he said these to me. I wonder. Bear, where did you go?

Bear, you said you will be there for me when I need you the most. Even if I need you forever. When I finally went through all the bad things in my life, when I can stand up again. You choose to let me go. You were there when I do need you the most. And you did. But not for long.

I find it kinda hard to make myself believe, that bear is really gone. One moment you were here. The next moment, you are really gone. Really gone. Vanished into thin air. Do you know how hard is it to convince William to give you back to me? He literally took you away from me.

The one I love is not William, is you Bear. You said you do love me. Just that you can't give me your whole heart because it was not a whole to start with. I know I have been greedy, I was searching for the missing parts. Maybe I thought it was not enough though I have the largest portion. But I never gave up on you. And you know that.

He do not love you the way you wanted it to be doesn't mean he do not love you at all. But it seems like it's too late for me to come across these words. I really do not know what do I want right now. I can't think. My days in Kampar were used to be full. Because everyday when I wake up, I know Bear is here. I plan my day based on Bear's schedule. I always put you at the top of my list. I was happy.

Unfortunately, I was not in the top of William's list. There will be studies, family, friends, and other stuffs, then only me. How I wished to be at the top of the list, but deep down I know, I will never make it. Because I was and never will be the person that he adore the most. Bear was just a small part inside him. I lived for Bear, not William.

Now Bear is gone, so where do I go now? It must be stupid because there are so much more in life. But Bear is the one that makes my life better, full of joy and happiness. Even though he was not by my side sometimes, bear was at the back of my head. Because I hold on tight to his words. That he will be there for me no matter what.

Maybe bear did go somewhere, somewhere else waiting for me. And maybe with a new name. At the mean time, I will be searching for you bear. You were so special to me. And you know that I will not let you go. I never said any hurtful things to you. Because I really do cherish you with all my heart. I lied to you. Bear is the first guy that I truly loved. There was nobody before that. And all those hurtful things that I said to William, I said those things because I know, I already lose you bear. That was the moment, the hardest moment for me. Because I really can't see you through William.

I can't. What's with the pride and dignity? Ego? I do not need any. I only want my bear. Bear is what I am looking for. Not William. I miss bear holding my hands when he drives. How nice to shift the gear together. I can never be able to hold bear's hands anymore. I can never hug him anymore. Now you know why I hug you everyday? And call you bear everyday without any reason?

Because there will never be any response when I call you bear. And I can never held your hands anymore. And I will never get to see you anymore. I hate the fact that William took you away from me. I know he have issues, and he knows it too. He admit that he is a selfish, self-centered guy. We are totally different person. Nothing links us together. Absolutely nothing.

We were together for the wrong reason. I was with him because you were there, bear. You were there. Bear, I miss you so much. It pains me so much. The thought of not being able to hold your hands anymore already make my eyes full with tears. Those tears that I shed were never fake. You know that I will always be there for you. I know you do. I hope to see you again, I hope to hug you again.

Wonder why this blog is still up? This blog was the link between you and me. This is where you found me. From a guest in my blog, you emailed me twice. From sms to phonecalls. Till now, I still can't forget, even the smallest details. For now I can only hope the good ones stays. I love you Bear. I really do.

Do you know how hard is it for me to be in UTAR everyday? I can't get myself to walk through the bus stop. The fear for not seeing you there. There are so many things that I wanted to tell you. About how Dr Wong lecture in my class, about absolutely everything. It is so hard for me to adjust. It is just so hard for me to adapt.

I am no longer as strong as you thought I was. I used to be independent, after having you by my side for 1 whole year, a part of me is gone. I am broken, and I don't know how long do I need to heal myself and I do not know how to heal. They say time heals, but how long? How I hope to hear you calling me bear again. How I hope to hug you again. How I hope I can stop crying.

Bear, you are that important to me. Just that, William took you away. There is no point being together with William when you are gone. There is no point keeping the shell when bear is gone. But how am I going to find you again? How am I going to see you again?

Are you really gone forever? Will you appear in my life again? Maybe in a different shell? Remember bear, I will always be there for you. No matter what. Nothing else matters, I will not move on, because Bear, You are my love.

ps: ken lee tulibu dibu douchoo.

What! Utar turns down RM30million.

2010-01-07T07:58:00.000-08:00

KUALA LUMPUR – Plans by renowned philanthropist Koon Yew Yin, who has offered scholarships to Utar students to further alleviate their problems have hit a caveat.

Koon made a RM30mil donation offer in August this year to build hostels at the Utar Kampar campus to help students “because all the poor students who have taken my scholarships have been complaining that their room rental keeps going up and up.”

According to Koon, there are about 10,000 students in Utar Kampar and the university has no plan to build any accommodation for students.

In a letter to the media, Koon vented his frustration saying the Utar “was not willing to accept my RM30mil donation and to allow me to have control of a task force to oversee the spending of my money for building hostels within the Utar campus.”

“The housing developers are making hay while the sun shines. They just cannot build fast enough to meet the rapid increase of about 2,000 students per year,” said Koon.

utar-kampar-koon-yew-yin.jpgAs a result, room rentals in the campus town are going up with a twin sharing room going at RM420 a month, he claimed.

Koon who met MCA president Ong Tee Keat during a meeting earlier, said that the MCA leader was shocked that Utar was not willing to accept his RM30mil donation and to allow him to have control of the task force.

Koon said that Utar has 1,300 acres of land and he only requires 30 acres to build the hostels.

He alleged that Utar had insisted that he could build hostels to accommodate only 5,000 students so as not to “upset the current property rental market outside the campus.”

All terms agreed

Koon also said that he had accepted all terms by Utar, including donating the money directly to the university account.

However, Koon said in his letter that now, the Utar board of trustees chairman, Lau Yin Pin has written to him saying that they were willing to forego my RM30mil if he (Koon) insists on having control over the task force to manage the money he has donated.

“Their letter of rejection is disingenuous to say the least. In the first place, they are willing to accept my proposed donation (according to all except one) on the basis of the conditions that I have set out,” he said.

Koon said that the letter to him states that “the Trustees and the Council will ensure that your donation will be utilised specifically for the purpose stated by [me]” and “the returns from the hostel will also be utilised according to [my] wishes.

Koon wants 50 % of the returns to go to the Koon Yew Yin Scholarship and Loan Fund to be managed by Utar and the balance 50% of the returns for new hostel construction at Utar.

“However, in the same letter they state that ‘from the date of its inception on Aug 13, 2002, Utar has been receiving donations from various people and organisations including a launching grant of RM50mil from the Federal Government.

None of these donors have imposed any terms or conditions on Utar," said Koon.

Koon said that just because past donors have not insisted on conditions on their donations should not be used to reject his offer.

“This so-called tradition is being used to reject my condition for control of the task force and is quite frankly, absurd and unacceptable. It is clear to any observer that if the Utar management agrees to the other conditions I have set out, they are already breaking the so-called “practice and tradition” of unconditional donations.”

No vested interest

Koon insisted that his main concern in asking for control of the task force is to protect both the interests of the students and Utar.

“As a result, more students will be attracted to Utar Kampar which will also benefit the various property owners that are currently enjoying the benefits of the abnormally high rental market in Kampar at the expense of the students. “

In his letter of appeal to the MCA president, he urged the party and leaders to share his concern and to oppose “Utar members who may not be so scrupulous on observing their basic fiduciary duty to protect the interests of the students and university.”

In the mean time, I have to remind all the members of Utar Council and the Board of Trustees of their fiduciary duty.

Koon lamented that to stop him from building hostels on the basis of a “weak, illogical and unjustifiable pretext is surely against the interest of thousands of students and the university institution.”

“I would like to stress that the net income from the rental of RM30mil invested in hostels and associated facilities will help thousands of students. You must not forget that the net income will be recurring which will help many more future students,” said Koon.

Source

KTM New Electric Train KL - IPOH

2009-12-25T16:10:00.000-08:00

I guess everybody likes me to be single. Boo. I have been on a vacation for 1 year, no matter how much I enjoyed my vacation, no matter how beautiful and wonderful experience I had, good things still have to come to an end. So I am back from my vacation. I will try to blog more ok? No promises though.

To put things aside.

Since I haven't blog anything related to Kampar for so long, I have good news for UTAR Kampar students!

You probably already heard about it by now, KTM's new electric train from KL to Ipoh! It will take you less than 2 hours just to reach from KL to Ipoh! Well, 1 hour and 55 minutes to be exact. Well, here are some photos and a video!

I will definitely give it a try! I might even just board in the morning from Kampar to KL then go to Midvalley to shop and catch some movies. Then go back at night! So who wanna join me?!

Source and Latest News about KTM new electric train.

Tambah Aminuddin, ETS mempunyai reka bentuk dalaman yang menarik, dilengkapi pendingin hawa, televisyen LCD, ciri mesra pengguna kurang upaya dan ciri keselamatan Automatic Train Protection System.

"Untuk memastikan pemandu sentiasa peka dalam pemanduan, pemandu ETS dikehendaki menekan satu butang setiap 30 saat bagi menunjukkan mereka sedang memberikan sepenuh konsentrasi. Sekiranya mereka tidak menekan butang itu, tren akan bergerak perlahan dan berhenti," kata Aminuddin sambil memberitahu ETS berkapasiti 350 penumpang.

P.S: Now, who needs a boyfriend to fetch you back from Kampar to KL? HAH!

Credits to Kampung2005!

I have a date later at 1U, gonna watch Avatar in 3d at 12pm then The Frog Princess at 5pm! Gonna be a longgggggg day! And maybe watch Sherlock Holmes with my sisters tomorrow. Last night went to Tropicana to buy tickets at 9pm for the 11.40pm screening, left bad front row seats only :( So we gave up, maybe will watch it another day!

And oh yea, Merry Christmas!

We were together for 11 months & 1 week.

2009-12-22T06:51:00.000-08:00

I've finally made it. We broke up. I did not burst into tears or wanna cut my wrist.

I'm all good! I will be independent again just like how I was 11 months and 1 week ago.

I tried the best that I can give but it doesn't work.

It doesn't but it's OK. Now I know what I really want in my life and I hope I can find my prince charming soon enough.

I want to fall in love all over again!

My friends, I need your support!

Me being idle from blogging can already show you how distracted my mind was. I can't even do any simple blogging.

I tried to blog but never got it published.

Anyway, it's for the better.

Just like what Cheesie said,

And I don’t want people to tell me that distance doesn’t matter, age doesn’t matter race doesn’t matter money doesn’t matter or whatever doesn’t matter. Because every inch and mm of whatever you think doesn’t matter does matter.

It mattered.

Yes, it mattered. I loved, I cried, I tried all I can. I get nothing in the end.

I wish to scrub off this 11 months and 1 week.

I hope I can live better next semester!

All the best to me!

Movie - Where Got Ghost? 吓到笑

2009-11-12T16:55:00.000-08:00

At last I found this movie! Searched high and low for this movie! I'm gonna embed this movie here and watch it later! Mwahahahahaha!!!!!!!

Do you enjoice?

Race Relations in Malaysia - A Malay View

2009-10-24T22:02:00.000-07:00

I am very disappointed. Really.

Happy Deepavali

2009-10-16T06:19:00.000-07:00

Happy Muruku, Papadum, Wadeh, Capati, Tosai and Roti Canai Day!

Movie - Baby and I

2009-10-14T14:56:00.000-07:00

The baby is so cute!

This Is a Photoshop and It Blew My Mind

2009-10-14T11:28:00.000-07:00

Newest Professions, Growing Salaries

2009-10-13T07:59:00.000-07:00

12 Jobs That Didn't Exist Until Recently

YEAHHHHHHHHHH

2009-10-13T07:56:00.000-07:00

Fake

2009-10-12T06:52:00.000-07:00

My job requires me to fake a smile on my face every single day. Even though I am really sad on the inside. I weep behind my parents' seat when I head to work every morning, and I have to dry my tears by the time I step down from the car and head to work.

I work 8 hours non-stop and no break time and I keep on trying to be friendly to everybody and try to learn everything that I can. At the same time doing all the dirty jobs, washing the dishes for a few times, you can never imagine the load, sweep and mop the floor, clear the tables, throw the garbage to the garbage area, collect ashtrays and wash it.

Every time when I collect an ashtray, I felt that I am breathing in the ashes, it makes me so sick. But everything is OK, it is just a job. I am OK. I am really OK. When I reach home after 8 hours of standing, and running inside and out from the kitchen, my legs were sore and numb but I am still OK. But when I reached home and sit down in my own room. The loneliness and the empty bed. The quiet MSN and the phone that hardly rings.

I lie on my bed and try to sleep. I cried for another round before I go to sleep due to my tiredness. Then I wake up again in the morning. Alone again, trying hard to stand up and go to work and put up a fake smile again.

Bumble Bee

2009-10-12T05:58:00.000-07:00

Gosh. That must be tiring.

不打了。

2009-10-11T18:15:00.000-07:00

想找个人来听我说话，但是没有人真的听的懂我的意识。说了也是白费力气。天啊！做人好假啊！

好想在打下去，但是后果也会很难受。不打了。去死吧。

I like this cat.

2009-10-11T05:22:00.001-07:00

Kopi Bin

2009-10-10T11:03:00.000-07:00

I am a barista!

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OK, OK I'm just a Trainee.
But SOON!
SOON I WILL BE A BARISTA!

Annoyed

2009-10-07T17:40:00.000-07:00

Pasta Zanmai asked me to go back and work for them again.

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I AM NEVER GOING BACK!

GTFO!

UTAR, Kampar Campus Pictures Galore V2

2009-10-06T13:59:00.000-07:00

Today's line is not bad, I can upload 83 pictures in 1 go! I wanted to post this earlier, but Kampar line is so terrible, I can't even upload more then 5 pictures in 1 go. Use cable some more! Ughh! Now I use wireless only in PJ can upload 83 pictures in 1 go. Wonder what is wrong with Kampar and screamyx. They never mix?

Because it's semester break, I kinda forgot where I took all those pictures. I have very short term memory. Sorry. Just let the pictures do the talking can ah?

WARNING! 83 pictures ahead!

Spot my bear. Hehe.

I think I am either in Block H or I.

They say this will be the biggest lecture hall in UTAR.

Pardon my shaky hands.

12 steps!
I wonder how are you going to handle the pressure
if you have to do your presentation here.
Stage fright? Better watch out! Haha!

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One of my fav picture in UTAR.

I call it the mini canteen. How to fit so many students here la!

It's like die die also wanna fit it here lo.

The infamous largest Library in UTAR. Block G.
Ignore the brown papers. It's used to protect the glass windows.

If you haven't notice, I don't remember which block I am now.
See la! Don't let me blog earlier!
Now I don't remember which is which block liao!

Another fav pic from UTAR.

I wish to take more pictures in Block H and I,
but Bear and I was shoo-ed by the guards.
They claimed that the building is still unsafe.
Oh well, go venture yourself then.

The view from the Library.

That is block J! It's a bengkel for engineers!
The design is a bengkel with good airflow.
No air cond of course.

White pillars.

Block G.

The basement.

Soon to be offices, I think.

To the back or to the front? Let's assume the lake view is at the back of Block G lah.

Our soon to be filled with books Library. I think the design is like Kinokuniya.

If you stand here, you can feel the wind blowing at your face. Good fengshui lor.

Another pic of the library.

Lake view from the library basement.

There you can see Block B. Yes, it's that FAR.

EDK also that far!

Entrance to the library basement at the back.

Please don't drive there. It's a dead end. LOL.

Platforms for students to sit and play laptop?

Still in the basement.

Walking up from the basement to the top.

In front of Block G.

I like the glass design.

It was 5pm, am not allowed to go in.

That is block H if I am not mistaken.

This is Block F.

It's just in front of Block H. I think it will be offices. or maybe indoor canteen.
I saw tables and chairs.

Dunno why got this feature. Fengshui maybe.

I want to see this at night!

Block F.

Look at the amount of air conds installed!

err.. I dunno where I am.

That is Block J!

This should be Block H.

The purpose of this picture is to show u the amount of cow dung.

This is what I call a campus!

The end.

My New Hammies!

2009-10-06T13:38:00.001-07:00

The pet shop owner gave me 5 new hammies!
So now I have 7 hammies in total now.
I have 1 sapphire,
1 pearl and others...
dunno, still trying to find out.

So I have Hamtaro, Hamachi, and Speedy!
Bear, I name him Speedy, he can run very very fast!
The other 4, er.. still thinking of the name.
Any ideas?
And there are some which looks like Hamtaro just that smaller size,
but behave just the same like Hamtaro!
Keep on eat eat eat and sleep on the wheel!
And save for winter also.

First time see 3 hammies drink water together.
They must be very very thirsty.
I know I never post Hamtaro and Hamachi's picture before.
Will post their picture up when the mood comes.

Till then, bye!

Jackie Soft Leather Satchel

2009-10-02T11:54:00.000-07:00

*swoons*

Click here and here.

Amused.

2009-10-02T10:11:00.000-07:00

I like this,

Go read.

For Kamparians only.

Grand Kampar Hotel

2009-10-02T03:15:00.000-07:00

A random photo that I found in the net just now.

FW:

2009-09-30T10:01:00.000-07:00

Found this is my e-mail.

草莓蛋糕中的草莓，是不能吃的。　　

天啊! 之前不知吃了多少到肚子裡了........

本人因為在蛋糕房做過助手，所以知

道草莓蛋糕是不能吃的，不論草莓是

用來做裝飾或是用來做內餡，製作中是

絕對不洗的，因為草莓一沾到水就很容易爛掉。

有機蔬果中是沒有草莓的，因為根本栽種不活，

通常，越是漂亮的草莓，農藥越是多，但是為

了維持它的漂亮和美觀，通常是直接從盒子中取

出，去掉變黃的葉子，就直接放到蛋糕上去，有

些在盒中被壓壞的，就切掉壞的部份或是擺久了

爛掉的部份，把好的那一半用進去。所以，草莓

蛋糕的切片草莓最好不要吃。

草莓糖葫蘆也一樣碰不得，一次連吃三十顆

(約500公克)以上就會肝中毒

How true can this be?

Kyushu You Ryokucha

2009-09-30T09:16:00.000-07:00

Made myself some green tea today.
I've always wanted to make it a habit to drink green tea everyday.
Of course I failed miserably.

I was wondering do people put cream or milk into their green tea.
So I Googled it, apparently, its not something that people commonly do.

Read a few article and found this.

Milk wrecks the health benefits of green tea

It was found that tea relaxed the rings of the aorta. But when the tea had 10% of skimmed milk in it, these effects were absent.

Researchers found that the casein proteins in milk blocked the health effect of tea.

So yeah, better just leave them alone.

Trying to relax now, will blog more when the mood comes.

The creator of Shin-Chan, Yoshito Usui is dead.

2009-09-23T14:32:00.001-07:00

I guess you guys should have known about this by now.

I've post it in my msn for quite sometime now.

Ironically,
I've copied all the Shin Chan anime from Eric the other day.
The next morning I got this news instead.
I don't know how to react,

but the fact is,
the older we grow,
the more people is going to leave us.
Well, many well-known people died this year,
and you should know who they are.

What happened to Yoshito Usui is tragic,
but I am proud of him.
I'm sure most of you out there laughed at his creation before.
Therefore,

R.I.P

BRB

2009-09-20T15:58:00.000-07:00

wanna spend more time with Bear before sem break :(

Meanwhile, watch this.

Baaa!

DISTURBING KIDS BOOK

2009-09-16T15:33:00.000-07:00

DISTURBING OR NOT???

EXAMS

2009-09-14T13:55:00.000-07:00

OK, I am really looking forward to blog about the new blocks in UTAR (Block F,G,H,I,J). BUT, exams are really helding me back. And, I am restricted to blog about them now. I can only blog after my exams. *stares at Bear*

~~Obviously I am blogging this secretly!~~

Anyways, some pictures for you guys to feast on before I gone MIA for a day or two.

My fav picture!

Bear's 2.0 megapixel K530i is doing such a decent job. Better than my crappy 1.3 megapixel right?

Anyways, stay tuned!

Wish me luck for my exams!

And I wish you all the best for your exams too!

the "transparent" fashion phone.

2009-09-13T15:34:00.000-07:00

you know the new LG Crystal Phone?

Show you some pictures sin.

It looks awfully like transparent plastic lah!

Well, I am using a LG phone now. Around RM100, a gift from my eldest sister ^^ and still got 3G which I never use.

Ya, I know this is a "Crystal" phone. Something shouts fragile. More like Glass!

You know everytime I break or lost a 3mm or 4mm Swarovski crystal, my heart aches. So this phone is a Big NO-NO to me.

Oh yea, Bear told me a cold joke just now.

What do you call Transformers' Daddy and Mummy?

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Transparent.

damn -__________________________-"" riiight???

I want a BlackBerry!!!

Do you know how to read YSL? Hermes?

2009-09-13T13:57:00.001-07:00

Something that I wanna share with you girls.

Yes, it's time for you girls to upgrade yourself.

Ditch your lalas outfits, bags, whatever. DITCH IT.

Well, if you can afford something upper class,

Please do not pair it with your lala stuff.

Maybe you should just watch this.

Please do not fake yourself to be something that you are not.

You are still a lala even though you have a LV.

Last time when I attend Moral class,
I saw a girl carrying a LV and she MUST HAVE a specific seat for her LV in the class. LOL.

Need like this meh?

Korean Politician

2009-09-13T09:19:00.000-07:00

ROFL!

crossdress

2009-09-11T13:43:00.000-07:00

LOL.

I don't mind promoting for him or her.. or.. whatever. Haha.

2009-09-10T13:21:00.000-07:00

感觉到这个世界上没有一个东西是属于我的。

Do you drive?

2009-09-09T10:32:00.000-07:00

Please watch.

Thank you.

Random

2009-09-05T11:33:00.000-07:00

A random picture of sunsets when bear walking me home. We met an accident on our way to Gopeng, so no car for a week or two. But I enjoyed that period of time. Weird as it sounds, I was happy.

2009-09-05T08:36:00.000-07:00

He left.

Makan di restoran Cina - Suami isteri ditangkap tidak puasa alasan tidak makan sahur

2009-09-04T22:56:00.000-07:00

MUSTAFA KAMAL (tengah) memberi penerangan kepada pasangan suami isteri yang ditahan kerana tidak puasa di Kangar semalam.

KANGAR - Sepasang suami isteri sanggup menjamu selera di sebuah restoran Cina, di sini bagi mengelak perbuatan mereka dihidu pihak berkuasa gara-gara tidak berpuasa.

Bagaimanapun, taktik mereka itu tidak menjadi apabila diberkas sepasukan penguat kuasa Jabatan Agama Islam Perlis (Jaips) pagi semalam.

Ketua Penolong Pengarah (Pendakwaan) Jaips, Mustafa Kamal Mohd. Taib berkata, pasangan tersebut pergi ke restoran itu untuk bersarapan kerana tiada gerai Islam yang membuka perniagaan pada waktu itu.

"Ketika kami serbu, lelaki berusia 24 tahun dan isterinya berusia 25 tahun sedang minum sementara menunggu makanan yang dipesan.

"Selain pasangan ini, ada lima hingga enam pelanggan Islam di restoran itu tetapi mereka sempat melarikan diri," katanya.

Menurut Mustafa Kamal, apabila ditanya kepada pasangan itu kenapa tidak berpuasa, alasan yang diberikan ialah tidak makan sahur.

sos

I've seen them eating Bak kut teh. Ada comment?

another Eww!

2009-09-04T21:01:00.001-07:00

Courtesy of Lando.

Go to HELL lah!

God is not good

2009-09-02T02:19:00.000-07:00

First,

Please lock the door, I am talking bad about the God.

Second,

Get the fuck out from my blog if you are lazy to watch the entire video clip or
just couldn't bother to listen or to care about whatsoever.

You may proceed now.

Cried? No? Then you are brainwashed badly.

KFC Double Down

2009-09-02T00:57:00.000-07:00

WHAT BREAD?

Mental Hospital Phone Menu

2009-09-01T23:15:00.000-07:00

"Hello and thank you for calling Tanjung Rambutan Mental Hospital.

Please select from the following menu options:

If you are obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly.

If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2 for you.

If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5 and 6.

If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want. Stay on
the line so we can trace your call.

If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be forwarded to
the MotherShip.

If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a little voice will
tell you which number to press.

If you are manic-depressive, it doesn’t matter which number you
press, nothing will make you happy anyway.

If you are dyslexic, press 9696969696969696.

If you are bipolar, please leave a message after the beep or before
the beep or after the beep. Please wait for the beep.

If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term
memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9.

If you have low self-esteem, please hang up. Our operators are too
busy to talk with you.

If you are menopausal, put the gun down, hang up, turn on the fan,
lie down and cry. You won’t be crazy forever.

If you are blonde, don’t press any buttons, you’ll just mess it up.”

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well defined characteristics? Haha.

Sauce

2009-09-01T22:05:00.000-07:00

No prize for guessing where izzit from.

CEO of J.P Morgan's Fantastic reply to a Pretty Girl

2009-09-01T00:50:00.000-07:00

A young and pretty lady posted this on a popular forum:
Title: What should I do to marry a rich guy?

I'm going to be honest of what I'm going to say here:
I'm 25 this year.
I'm very pretty, have style and good taste.
I wish to marry a guy with $500k annual salary or above.
You might say that I'm greedy, but an annual salary of $1M is considered only as middle class in New York.
My requirement is not high:
Is there anyone in this forum who has an income of $500k annual salary?
Are you all married?
I wanted to ask: what should I do to marry rich persons like you?
Among those I've dated, the richest is $250k annual income, and it seems that this is my upper limit. If someone is going to move into high cost residential area on the west of New York City Garden, $250k annual income is not enough.
I'm here humbly to ask a few questions:

1) Where do most rich bachelors hang out?
(Please list down the names and addresses of bars, restaurant, gym)
2) Which age group should I target?
3) Why most wives of the riches is only average-looking?
I've met a few girls who doesn't have looks and are not interesting, but they are able to marry rich guys.
4) How do you decide who can be your wife, and who can only be your girlfriend? (my target now is to get married)

Ms. Pretty

Awesome reply:

Dear Ms. Pretty,

I have read your post with great interest.
Guess there are lots of girls out there who have similar questions like yours.
Please allow me to analyse your situation as a professional investor.
My annual income is more than $500k, which meets your requirement, so I hope everyone believes that I'm not wasting time here.
From the standpoint of a business person, it is a bad decision to marry you.
The answer is very simple, so let me explain.

Put the details aside, what you're trying to do is an exchange of "beauty" and "money":
Person A provides beauty, and Person B pays for it, fair and square.
However, there's a deadly problem here, your beauty will fade, but my money will not be gone without any good reason.
The fact is, my income might increase from year to year, but you can't be prettier year after year.
Hence from the viewpoint of economics, I am an appreciation asset, and you are a depreciation asset.
It's not just normal depreciation, but exponential depreciation.
If that is your only asset, your value will be much worried 10 years later.

By the terms we use in Wall Street, every trading has a position, dating with you is also a "trading position".
If the trade value dropped we will sell it and it is not a good idea to keep it for long term - same goes with the marriage that you wanted.
It might be cruel to say this, but in order to make a wiser decision any assets with great depreciation value will be sold or "leased".
Anyone with over $500k annual income is not a fool; we would only date you, but will not marry you.
I would advice that you forget looking for any clues to marry a rich guy.
And by the way, you could make yourself to become a rich person with $500k annual income. This has better chance than finding a rich fool.
Hope this reply helps. If you are interested in "leasing" services, do contact me...

J.P. Morgan CEO

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the morale of the story is?

enlighten me please?

Eew!

2009-08-31T11:00:00.000-07:00

Watch at your own risk.

15MALAYSIA

2009-08-29T19:16:00.000-07:00

Potong Saga

Hop over a view some of these funny video clips to celebrate our National Day!

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Merdeka!

my blog is officially rusted.

2009-08-27T13:18:00.000-07:00

I bet nobody lingers here anymore, so I'll just randomly update and post my random photos and thoughts.

After so many semesters in UTAR, I've came up with some conclusions on how to survive in UTAR. How to play the game. I don't know why, it's like a war out there. Everybody is trying to survive in this game. Uni life is not plain. It's not something like, you attend classes, make friends, do assignments together, enjoy everybody's company. No. This is not uni life. Too fabricated.

Uni life is full of envy and hatred. People just want to use you to get what they want. Happiness? Their happiness comes from your misery. They are happy to see you suffer and being less fortunate than they are. It's purely dog eats dog world. Of course it may sound too exaggerated from my sentences. But try to apply some of these words into your current situation. If not, try to apply it on those loners out there in your class.

Lisa says I'm jealous. I am not. I am furious. Since young, people will just come to me when they face problems. Yes, only when they have problems. ALL THE TIME. No Fail. But I always helped them. I always thought, it's karma. If I treat people good, people will treat you the same way. Well, that is when I was young. That is when I was still uncertain about the existence of God. Where people trying to make me go to church and try to make me worship and call me their sister. When the malays in my school trying to persuade me to wear tudung because I wore baju kurung. All the brain washing.

However, now I am officially do not believe in the existence of God. Call me whatever you want. Anyway, God prefer atheist.

Now I know that, people will be with you because they have something that they want from you. You name it. Your friends, may be silently hating you but behave like an angel in front of you. I'm saying this is not because I am facing this. I've seen, heard and experienced. Can say, Been there. Done that. Back to the topic, why am I furious? I am furious because I hate people trying to take advantage on me. Sometimes I may 'layan' you, but that doesn't mean I am really there all the time to help you. Till now, most of the people around me will come to me ONLY when they face problems. Sudah biasa.

What makes me more furious is people taking advantage of my bf. What hurts me more than this? Those are not friends. Bear is a nice person. I know he is willing to help anybody. Helping people is good. But always over board. He always thinks that I am trying to stop him from fetching all those people to UTAR. The truth is, I don't like people taking advantage on him all the time because he have a car. I sure miss the time when we don't have a car for a few weeks. We spent more time together, I enjoyed the time we walked on the streets together. Now, as I pictured back then. UTAR girls are bitches. Please, you got motor, why do you need my bf to fetch you to class? If you cycle I am still ok. Rainy day, I'm ok. You're just too much. Why my bear have to fetch you anywhere you go? Why bear have to help you in everything? Go get your own group, do your own assignment, free marks from my bear is not what I want you to get.

I'm sure when I am not around, those girls will ask bear to fetch them here and there. Thick skin bitches. But it is still up to him. Bear should choose better friends. But I can't blame him. What kind of friends he can have from that type of class? Both of us having the same difficulty to find another human being that speaks in English in the class. I can't blame him. Blame the standards? How much more can you blame? Instead of blaming and whining, I've came up with the ways to survive in UTAR.

The point is, People will use you in order to achieve something else.

e.g. 1) Be your close friend to get free rides because you have a car.

reason: Need me to say more?

2) Hanging in your group to get free coursework marks.

reason: you know he/she will do his/her best in the assignment. 1 word. Freeloaders. Who don't want free high coursework marks? Duh.

How do you play the game then?

When you go to UTAR on the first day, don't talk so much. Observe. Choose your friend before other people choose you. If you face low quality friends like bear had, no choice, just make friends with anybody you can click with.

so what to do next when you have stupid friends that will pull down your CGPA?

No. 1

Stalk your lecturer. Always go for consultation hours. Do your assignment together, always find your lecturer in a group. For all subjects.

Objective for this move is to show your lecturer how much effort you put into your assignment. Lecturers loves this. A better word, teacher's pet. But please, do not 'mengampu'. Act normal, treat assignment as your homework. But must rajin find your lecturer. Always show your face to the lecturer. Eventually your assignment will have better quality and your lecturer likes you.

another way is to show your lecturers who are the parasites in your group. Lecturers are not as stupid as you think they are. They know who is doing all the work and who is the parasite by merely just asking a few questions. This will cure your uneasiness/frustration about your lame group member. He/she will eventually get lower marks than you.

In order to get good grades. You must have good coursework marks. If your coursework marks is based on exams, then you study hard can already. But if your coursework marks is based on assignment, presentation and midterm, then you must play the game well. The act above is to ensure you to get better marks for you assignment. Presentation? You can't do much. They can't even speak proper english, how to present? But the best point is, it shows that you are far better then them.

So, the equation is assignment + presentation + midterm = coursework marks.

High marks for assignment, high marks for presentation, study well for midterm, get at least 30/40. Then what to worry about your Finals? you can easily get a B. just get 50/100 in your final paper, you already have a B. If you're good, I'm sure you'll get an A. All these are based on what I see, hear and experience. you can give me your opinion. Agree or disagree. But this is what I believe in.

You must know how to play the game in order to survive. People are using you to get what they want. Even if you can achieve everything without their help, even if you rather do everything solo. But you have to be in a group to play the game. That's the rule, must make full use of your resources.

Anyway, what's a game without any difficulties and challenges? So what your friend sucks? They are just mere passengers in your life. Why give them all the benefits? So where are your benefits? There is no free lunch in this world.

Last word?

You Lead your own life. The way you want it to be. Not the other way round.

P.S. Pictures are not related.

Greatest Freak Out Ever

2009-07-22T10:28:00.000-07:00

this is quite disturbing.

Durian, Mata Kucing, and Longan

2009-07-22T08:34:00.000-07:00

Today I bought 5 durians for RM10!

And 800g mata kucing for RM4.

Happy ^^

Anyways, bear told me a story just now.

He used to buy 7 biji longans for 60sen and he thought it was cheap when he was in primary school!

His mum questioned him where did the money go, then he answered that he bought longans.

Then Mummy bear said, I buy 1kg longans for you la!

LOLz.

7 biji longans for 60sen story. LOL. Funny XD

I Want Durian!

2009-07-21T13:34:00.000-07:00

I haven't eat durian this year!

I want durian!

When I used to live in Segamat, my uncles and aunties will send them right to my porch at night the next day after the durians in their "farm" landed on the ground! Free Durians is always FTW! I didn't go back Segamat for a LONG LONG time! Well, because I don't live there anymore. Tesco is not selling durian too! Tomolo I will drive myself all the way to pasar malam and get myself some durians!

I don't care anymore! Arrghhh!!

Restaurant City

2009-07-21T06:47:00.000-07:00

Unker Wingz sent me this message just now.

LOL.

I have been playing this Facebook game for MONTHS now! Though I've reached the maximum level, now I hardly decorate my restaurant anymore. All I do is hunt for the ingredients to level up my food. Nowadays, I don't even hunt for the ingredients, I buy them instead. Getting lazier now.

What is more disturbing is, from Simple Cream of Mushroom Soup (Level 1) to Royal Cream of Mushroom Soup (Level 10), it still cost $2 per bowl only for your customer!

My restaurant's look used to be full of fancy decorations. But nowadays, I feel everybody is using the same thing. Well, everybody knows I don't like to have the same things like the others. So my restaurant end up looking like this.

I will play this game until I finish looking for all the ingredients I think. Kampar is that boring. Ok?

To All The Bitches Out There!

2009-07-19T12:37:00.000-07:00

:'(

2009-07-18T04:56:00.000-07:00

Re: Pachelbel Rant. Pagagnini

2009-07-18T00:30:00.000-07:00

This made me smiled :)

:(

2009-07-17T12:28:00.000-07:00

You

2009-07-16T22:22:00.001-07:00

when I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;

when troubles come and my heart burdened be;

then, I am still and wait here in the silence,

until you come and sit awhile with me.

Where are you? :(

No Idea

2009-07-16T10:04:00.001-07:00

I have no idea about

what do I want?

what do I want to achieve?

what do I want to do next?

what is important to me?

what should I do now and then?

what am I doing to myself?

what am I going to do for myself?

what am I going to do to myself?

what I am suppose to do for the others?

what am I suppose to care about right now?

what am I doing?

what am I?

I have lost myself.

and there is nobody that is willing to guide me out from this deepshit.

so far, I'll just do what I need to do now.

My future is so far away,

so blurred.

Hope I don't give up on myself,

not anywhere near the future.

Weather

2009-07-14T09:30:00.000-07:00

Kampar's weather is so hot,

it melted all my lipbalms!

:(

Kam Ling Prawn.

2009-07-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

You guys went to Kam Ling Restaurant before?

They sell Premium prawns one you know?

See? Their prawn is so damn small they can make it into

Premium Har Mai!

Stupid Phone.

2009-07-13T11:50:00.001-07:00

I wanted to blog, but my phone is failing me.

I can't retrieve my pictures from the phone!!!

I wrote the drafts and all I need to do left is just post some photos to prove my point!

But my computer cannot connect to my phone!

But still can charge battery! Waffak!

Time to get a new phone :(

Meanwhile,

maybe I'll just bluetooth the pictures to someone's phone

or

use his/her phone to take pictures from now on.

Yea, that sounds good enough.

Olympus PEN E-P1

2009-07-10T11:20:00.000-07:00

I want I want I want!!!

The Monkey and the Cookie Jar.

2009-07-07T04:19:00.000-07:00

monkey find cookie jar filled with cookies.
monkey put hand into cookie jar.
monkey grabbed some cookies.
monkey tried to get hand out of cookie jar.
monkey cannot get hand out of cookie jar due too many cookies held onto monkey's hand.
monkey is in pain as suffering as monkey tried to remove hand from cookie jar, still holding onto the cookies.

credits to:

Deimos Tel`Arin

Raining now.

2009-07-07T03:08:00.000-07:00

How do I feel now?

2009-07-07T02:06:00.000-07:00

I feel like this :/

No Fridge. How?

2009-07-07T01:11:00.000-07:00

Don't have fridge for a month already!

Buay Tahan liao!!!

Guess what I did?

TADAH!!!

Coleman icebox!

Now I can store cold drinks already!

Mwahahahahah!

Later go shopping~ :)

Parking.

2009-07-07T00:31:00.000-07:00

You people know how to park or not?!!!

Opportunity Cost

2009-07-06T01:47:00.000-07:00

Scarcity of resources is one of the more basic concepts of economics. Scarcity necessitates trade-offs, and trade-offs result in an opportunity cost. While the cost of a good or service often is thought of in monetary terms, the opportunity cost of a decision is based on what must be given up (the next best alternative) as a result of the decision. Any decision that involves a choice between two or more options has an opportunity cost.

:(

2009-07-05T10:30:00.001-07:00

I need some time off :(

Champion

2009-07-01T04:06:00.001-07:00

I had a cup of Champion today at pasar malam.

What? Never heard of it?

Nah. Champion. blu karer wan.

你

2009-06-25T15:04:00.000-07:00

你的心里面到底有没有我？

to blog or not to blog?

2009-06-03T03:28:00.000-07:00

Bear asked me to blog again.

Maybe I should.

Purchase of the Day.

2009-06-02T03:09:00.000-07:00

Guess what I bought today?

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TADAH!!!

My spontaneous RM129 of Damage!

to cut the long story short,

I moved, now no more aircond,

and everybody knows kampar is sibeh hot!

anyway,

was going to tesco to buy curtains,

then bought this in less than 5 minutes.

end up go home without curtains,

but a big giant box!

Syok! I always wanted this for a long long time!

Mwahahahahaha!

My Greatest Purchase Ever!

Oh my long forgotten blog.

2009-05-08T02:22:00.001-07:00

I've typed. I published. Then I saved it into drafts. I am sorry.

Don't Go Near TNB Sub Station During Rain

2009-03-04T04:45:00.000-08:00

Why?

Hmmm.. Let's see.

I will let the pictures do the talking.

Gasps!

Look at the hairs!

The morale of the story,

Do Not Go Near TNB Sub Station During Rain.

Thankyouverymuch for today. I have less than 14 hours to finish my Morale Assignment. Pray for me. Bye.

A very late update.

2009-02-21T05:29:00.000-08:00

I am sorry for not updating this lately. I was not able to online for the past few weeks in Kampar. And obviously I'm back in PJ now :)

Ok, I think this will be a very long update. ehhem.

It is not easy staying with your "friends". Yes, they used to by my friends/course mates/class mates/group mates. But, once you all stay under one roof, it is not easy to maintain the friendships I can say. Once they got hooked up, in their eyes will never have you. And staying with a dirty house mate is not a good option too.

#1 The fridge.

Last time when I got back to Kampar during semester break, my house's electricity kena potong (they didn't pay the bills). Fine, then the stuff (meat/hotdog/corn/etc.) in the fridge stayed in the fridge for 1 month.

You can imagine what it will become then.

Well, we intended to wash the fridge, but it is still in the same condition till this day. And we are still using it. Enough said.

#2 Streamyx

Streamyx was OK before CNY, but after CNY, they moved the switch and modem upstairs. And I was not even informed about it. This shows how 'important' I am. So from that day onwards, I was unable to online. Thus, I told them off. I will stop paying for the bills and I don't want to use it anymore.

Pay the bills yourself.

#3 Dirty house

My house is so dirty. We wear shoes into our house and take it off once we reach our room's doorsteps. Yeah, read my lips. We are UTAR students.

#4 Water Pipe

They destroyed the pipes last semester, and it remains that way till today. I don't think they will ever fix it.

#5 Rotten floor

The tiles on the floor cracked last semester, and it is still not being fixed. Enough said.

#6 Trash

My house's compound is filled with trash. And the grass is so tall, I think can feed 10 cows.

#7 Electric bill

It is still very high, and I still don't know why.

#8 Distance to UTAR

is very very very farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!

In conclusion, I am moving next month to Taman Perdana :) It's opposite Tesco. It's a Lecturer's house but I need to pay RM300 for the single room. Streamyx, electric, water, whatsoever bills are included. I can use the kitchen, fridge, washing machine, etc. And it's near UTAR of course. And here got bus too. And we don't need to fight who will clean the common room, the lecturer's wife will clean it. Hehe. And, my room have aircond~

You know how HOT the weather is in Kampar or not? Overall, I am happy and I can't wait to move as soon as possible :) Wish me luck ok? I will blog more after I move. And surely nobody will interrupt my line again I guess :)

Public Holiday Today

2009-02-03T00:35:00.000-08:00

Hi there,

long time didn't update already,

well, there's CNY and loads of things to catch up on.

but, I'm still in Kampar :D

Anyway, I went to Minat just now, which is located at Old Town.

When I was browsing, something caught my eyes.

Sanitary pads!

Well, who on earth will buy sanitary pads with Biore FOR MEN Cleanser?

Will guys ever buy the Cleanser and then give the sanitary pads to their gf/sister/mother/aunty/friend/etc. ???

Rainy day.

2009-01-21T09:03:00.000-08:00